Back to solitary

 I always considered myself too independent to share myself with someone else romantically, give him my all. I am never the kind who expresses my feelings openly. So people around me often see me as a feeling -less person. Well I won't argue with that.

And then there's you.

I was recently romantically involved with someone (albeit shortly. But Yeah that came as a surprise to me too)- who for some unclear reasons, decided to just start treating me coldly and kinda vanished on me slowly, as if saying nothing between us ever happened. I think this is called the silence "break up". 

I was then left feeling sad, confused by the sudden and reasonless abandonment, thinking, how could I be treated so poorly by someone I had feelings for. I was lost and not sure what to do next. I think I deserve a validity of a heartbreak. (Closure is god damn important) so I went ahead to break my own heart my digging out the truths by matching bits and pieces of puzzles I've collected (im freaking good at such, mind you) and hell, you can't imagine how bad this whole situation is.

I then slowly, but surely, became officially certifiably heartbroken. And I have myself to thank, partly. I mean sure, maybe all along I'm all in this whole happiness bubble alone but that doesn't matter now anymore, does it?

I'm not sure what I did was right but I guess there's no right or wrong when it comes to the truth. Everyone thinks this whole thing is stupid but hey, unrequited is just as valid as others. So it all comes back to the first point, never let your heart feel anything because it will lead to nowhere or maybe thats just for me.

They say regrets and mistakes are memories made. I'd say goodbye to the memories but there's no hello to begin with.

I hope I could unmet you.